Franklin Square – Agent of Change

Foreword

May 20, 2016

Working directly beside Franklin Square Park, in the heart of Olde City, Philadelphia, I often take advantage of the fresh air during lunch breaks to escape the pressures of daily deadlines. Along with my lunch, I bring my pad, computer, or book. I write or read myself out of my daily-deadlines mindset, utilizing the background sights and sounds of others enjoying the outdoors.

I am an observer. I like to watch as people interact, whether it is with their children, their coworkers, or people they meet around the fountain. I enjoyed watching and listening to the storytellers share the history of the city while the Once Upon a Time in America program still had enough funding to be an everyday event.

This backdrop, almost like a baseball game on the radio, acts as a perfect natural disruption to allow words to play their way into prose. Noise, movement, interesting goings-on give the eye and ear somewhere to go while the mind sorts. Some of my best-written character habits have come from watching people sitting in the park. Repetitive movements like hair flips, nose scratches, clothing adjustments all catch my eye while I open myself to the next line of my work in progress. Candid moments doing common tasks while conversing saved away for use another day. Most writers should relate to this statement.

This environment breeds creativity. As I enjoyed the park on a sunny May afternoon, I had an idea running through my head. I had partially captured interlinking analogies on the train ride into town. Parallel concepts from abnormal viewpoints.

The framework in place, my present task was pulling the correct words from the air to match the pace of the piece and create the proper imagery I sought to capture. The perfect word can be elusive; like catching a feather or dandelion seed as it blows and falls. The more you chase it the more it teases, just out of reach.

As I glanced around the park to entice the word to chase me, I noticed a man in period dress sitting on a bench around the fountain. He was tapping away on a keyboard, pausing to look around, and then tapping again. I watched as he changed position and faced my direction. Ben Franklin!

The juxtaposition of seeing a leading man from the pinnacle of Philadelphia’s history, one of the founding fathers of our nation and the Age of Reason, sitting on a park bench with a laptop, almost in visual line with the kite and lightning bolt statue at the entrance to the Ben Franklin Bridge, made me smile. It also gave me the opening for the needed word to reach me. I returned to writing, again on a flow, the new word bringing many friends.

Once the cork exits the bottleneck, the words demand their way onto paper. My flow, now plentiful and sparkling, much like the fountain in the center of the park splashed from my pen. My zone of consciousness as large as the sheet of notepaper before me. From this zone, I failed to notice the approach, only warned of the impending interruption by the shadow crossing my pad.

The man I had seen sitting on the bench by the fountain was now standing beside me. “Excuse me sir, would you mind if I join you?” I looked up into the face of one of my heroes of history. I knew he was not Ben Franklin, yet my mind acted as if the impersonator standing across from me wanting to join me was genuine.

As much as I wanted to curse and complain about him making me lose my line of thought, something about this moment seemed magical and out of the ordinary. Instead, I tried to stand, not an easy task while sitting at a park picnic table and invited this man in period dress to join me. He was about to take a seat and after glinting into the sun behind me, came around to my side and sat beside me, placing his laptop on the table in front.

“Can you spare a few minutes to converse? I apologize for interrupting your writing. I’ve seen you here previously; your habits are those of a writer. I have enjoyed watching thoughts flow through you as you capture them on your page. Have you been published?”

I sat slack-jawed, not certain why my reactions were slowed as if set in cooling wax or tar. The man’s laugh startled me into an answer. “No, not really. I have posted poems and short stories on websites, but nothing in print. I’m not new to writing, but it has always been for personal enjoyment. Only recently have I thought to share my “rantings and musings” as my friend Rob would say.”

I felt his mind probing me as I spoke. For the first time, I considered that this was not a normal interruption of my Friday lunch hour. Never had I interacted with a Ben Franklin impersonator, yet I had said hello to this man in normal dress while walking in Chestnut Hill. However, this meeting had an air of the unusual.

“Hi, I’m John.  I’ve seen you a couple times in Chestnut Hill.”

The statement surprised him. “Please call me Ben. The name doesn’t go with the costume; it’s truly mine.”

I am not sure if the distaste at the remark registered on my face, but he continued. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, John. I don’t mean to be untactful or impertinent, but I need to ask a favor.”

This made me lean back with surprise and annoyance before lifting my leg over the bench seat and turning to face the man now holding the focus of my resentment. Not only for the interruption, but also expecting me to grant a favor when he wouldn’t even share his name with me.

“To begin, no matter how much I try to tell you about my request, you will never believe me. Nevertheless, I need the help of a writer. I wrote a story that needs to be told but lack the time to complete the project.” As he spoke, he turned toward me, also straddling the wood seat. The honesty and intensity of his body language as he looked at me fought through my defenses.

“I thought this task of requesting your help would be easier. I underestimated the social barriers involved and recognize my imposition. Please forgive my manners.”

His sincerity moved me. It must have shown in my body language. I watched as he relaxed, prepared to continue.

“Okay. Let me get to the point. As you know from history, my character is a writer as am I. My story needs telling. It’s all here.” He tapped his laptop with both hands as he made this statement.

“I need a writer; I hope it is you, to get this manuscript file published. I am sure you will need to adjust and update my terminology in places, but the story, as unbelievable as I know it will seem, is true. All I ask is that you read it, edit it, and publish it. I don’t care if it’s published under an assumed name or as your own. Once I hand you the laptop, I relinquish ownership of everything it contains.”

I sat back, playing over what he said. It took a moment for the impact of his words to wallop me.

“Wait, a second! You want to give me a laptop with a story file on it and want me to get it published? Why don’t you do it? Why don’t you copy it onto a flash drive? I have too many questions. How will I get the laptop back to you?”

“I have no further use for the computer. It will not work where I am going. My days in this time are ending. Please honor this old man’s request. Please!”

“Are you dying? I don’t understand!”

“Please, John. We could talk for hours, and you would not comprehend. Believe me, I was once in a similar situation. Please take a leap of faith and honor an old man. Once you read my story, you will understand and hold answers to most of your questions. Secrets carry power and can rob a person of their ability to live. The events written here, although minute compared to the bigger picture, had a larger personal impact on my life than most histories recorded in books.”

“I hope you will recognize the need to drop my facade and allow everyone to know the lesser-known side of someone time has made into a historic icon.”

“Wait! Are you speaking of Ben Franklin or you?”

“John, I must leave. I have a train to catch and preparations to make before journeying to the other side. Please take on this project. My life will soon be over. I cannot allow these vital parts of me to die as well.”

“Maybe I can help. You look too healthy to be dying any time soon. Unless…? You aren’t planning on taking your own life, are you?” My face must have voiced my concerns.

“For God’s sake, no. Nothing so dramatic. Please! Just read my story. Take my word for it, by the end, you will understand!” As if I agreed, he rose. “Wait! You can’t leave! How am I to know what to do with this?”

“John, you as a writer know how mysterious life is. You never question where creative thoughts come from, do you? Some spark of thought catches us, spins us, and we open ourselves to the process of shaping words into art.”

I began telling him that I always question where creative thoughts come from, but he continued in all seriousness.

“John, I have given you the framework here. I grant you creative license to follow the process to completion. Time no longer matters. Feel free to cover any tracks I left uncovered with similar landscapes you know well. My stories need telling. So much of who I am needs sharing. Promises we make bind us to others for eternity and some secrets require a veil of shadows. I feel as if I now exist beyond the veil. You will know of which I speak once you read.”

He reached down and lifted the laptop, emphatically placing it in my hands. “A tremendous weight is leaving me knowing my story is safely in your hands!” I witnessed a rising reset of his shoulders as the weight this man carried transferred to me.

Two taps of his cane, an adjustment to his vest, and a brushing of particles only he could see settled the matter.

His project was now my project.

He honored me with a bow and without further hesitation, made his way up the brick pathway toward Seventh Street. All I could do was sit and watch, my mind still trying to wrap itself around the encounter that just occurred.

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All in the Prep Work

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We can take a can of paint, re-coat a rusted chair
making it beautiful, almost new again
but if the rust and old loose paint wasn’t cleared away
it’s just a matter of time until chips and rust resurface
a painful blemish on our new perfection

Just like anger!  If we don’t deal with the resentment
if we just move on, deal with the present, keep it clean
avoiding the real bone of contention underneath
the poison, the rot, the untreated decay patiently
waits for the next bump to bring it back to the surface

How do we balance moving on, not letting yesterday ruin today
with clearing away the root of the problem? Surely the hardest
part of the Serenity Prayer; dealing with past problems,
and changing, requires one foot in the past. It’s not the same
as setting troubles behind and then joining them there

Do we just accept the things we cannot change? Spray
on a new can of ‘just for today, it will be ok’? Do we
take up the fight and change the circumstances?
Deal with the unpleasantness of confrontation
risking clearing our resentment, but losing the other person

Where do we gain the wisdom to know the difference?
How do we set aside the emotions to not react?
As with most things, it’s all in the prep work. Take
the wire brush of reason, bounce thoughts off others
and then, choose the next right thing

Quest for the Perfect Fort, pt 1

The Perfect Fort

fort

When we were growing up, a favorite activity of our gang of boys was the search for, the building, or outfitting, of our hideouts or forts. Whether it was an unused shed, a covered porch, a hole concealed with plywood, or even a dense clump of bamboo, the search and discovery process of finding the perfect fort was a driving force in our life. Forts were necessary for our group. We always felt the need to have privacy and a place to hide their booty. It didn’t matter whether we gathered things from the neighborhood trash, or stole stuff from the local stores, or even took it from our own homes.
Continue reading “Quest for the Perfect Fort, pt 1”

The Quest for the Perfect Fort

Introduction to story

A couple of years ago, a friend of mine from high school had the misfortune of having his apartment building burn down. having his apartment building burn down. He didn’t have renters insurance and lost all his possessions, which included his music equipment. Being a musician, the fire wiped out his ability to make money, as well as taking most of his possessions and his residence. He ended up on the streets learning how to be homeless.
His pride was beaten down, but he refused to let most people know he was on the streets. He referred to his new living situation as “camping in the city” and set up a system of rules for himself which I am proud to say, he followed his own rules most of the time. He always appeared clean, wore clean clothes, and he always looked and smelled washed. Without knowing his situation, one would have no idea he was homeless.

My friend rented the smallest available u-haul space to keep what he owned and even though it was against the rules, used the room to change daily
. He found places to sleep where he was safe and would not be arrested for vagrancy, and he found places to eat in trade for some small manual labor so that he didn’t have to beg. He tried not to rely on any one friend for too much support, paying back what he could when his monthly royalty checks came in. He did his best to make the best of a horrible situation.
I often wondered how I would do in the same circumstance. His situation was like many on the streets. Living paycheck to paycheck, then all of a sudden, that state of affairs becomes fond memories of the good, old days. One misstep or tragic event kicks you to the street and survival takes over as the primary need.
urban camping
His situation always made me think about gratitude. But, at the same time, it also got me thinking about what I would do to find survival on the streets, if my life fell apart and circumstances changed. Would I be able to go “camping in the city”? Had my successful living robbed me of my basic instincts instilled as a child?

As a kid, some of the greatest adventures of my neighborhood friends revolved around finding new forts
. I first had the connective thoughts between living on the streets and our old searches for forts twenty-some years ago. At the time, after moving back from New York, I found out that a different friend was living under a bridge for a while, on his way to hitting his bottom.

My other friend’s recent troubles ran all these old thoughts through my mind again and put much of these earlier thoughts about survival on the streets into clearer focus
. Homelessness is no joke and I would never make light of their plight. If anything, these considerations put things into perspective for me. But for the grace of God, there go I!
This I do know, my youthful thinking is still always with me. To this day, I never come upon a spot that would have made a good fort, that I don’t stop and look at, thinking of all the pros and cons. All the same considerations go through my head before I even know it. How would I get in and out without being seen and would my stuff be safe? Is there any way to block the entrance so I can use lights? What would be my alternate escape route? Will I be sheltered from the elements? Will I be trespassing or more importantly, will I be prosecuted if caught?
I never want to find out how I would do in real life living day-to-day on the streets, but I can’t help but to think this way. I know I could survive, if it came down to necessity.
Over the course of the next few posts, I will share the story of my, and my friends childhood quests for the perfect fort. My goal is to capture the fun fantasies, the talents and ingenious adaptability of my group of friends. The joys of growing up outdoors instead of in front of a television or computer monitor still impact my thoughts and memories. Here is a glimpse at the ways our youthful choices affected our lives and the joys of finding the perfect fort.
Enjoy!

Clipper Ship on Stormy Seas

Clipper ship

Clipper Ship on Stormy Seas

Round bales of wool cut into two and a half inch segments
Grouped by color, wrapped and numbered, filling a box
One by one, given a new home on the canvas
Fold over hook, insert, loop, pull, and adjust
Space by space, row by row, color by color
Move on to the next row

Compulsion, obsession, suppression
Fear of stopping drives the progress
A world of people, places and things
Waits patiently for the hook to be put down
Keep moving until the fingers are raw
Seventeen days later and almost done
Fighting through blisters, cuticles bloody
Loose wool lint coating clothes, chair, and floor

Began with the sky, ending with the green-blue sea
Light and dark and dark greens, creamy foam topped waves rolling past
A small JC in the bottom corner finished off the piece
Withdraw preserved in strands of wool
Mounted on the wall to always remember
The pain of beginning a new life with choice
A clipper ship on stormy seas now safe at port

A move and then another, a couple more to come
Its new residence, a shelf in my parent’s basement – forgotten
Cardboard boxes are never safe in floodwaters – everything ruined
Decades later another flood and the need for repairs
Demanded the first floor be cleared, boxed and stored
And there on the top shelf of the hallway closet it sat
Folded, safe and sound, the colors just as bright

The first seventeen days of my new life preserved
Strand by strand, hook by hook, fingers raw by nightfall
The sinking ship that was my life prior, reprogrammed
Thirty-five years later, still sailing along with choice
Row by row, hook by hook, day by day
The years line up and life takes on an image
Gratitude for the reminder of what was lost, then found

Previously published by Silver Birch Press as part of the Lost and Found collection